Wednesday, April 18, 2012

PNoy is our monarchical symbol.

King PNoy

In light of the flak that the president has been receiving with regard his purported inefficiency as president of the republic, crafty critics has coined the term Noynoying.

Now now... my friend said that what she's happy about is the fact that PNoy has high trust ratings. She sees this as an improvement from GMA's term when the people had very low morale and took on a very 'defeatist' approach in confronting everyday problems.

She went on to say that PNoy symbolizes hope. That said, I was reminded of how monarchies function in other parts of the world. Could it be that PNoy's there to symbolize something good?

Is being a symbol for hope and a better, brighter future enough? Are we ready for a monarchy?

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Friday, April 13, 2012

Letters to X: Real Love


I would like to think what we had was real. I would have liked to hold on to it, to you, but we can't keep on dancing the same rhythm over and over again.

I kept on talking about how I must stop this (I've been talking about 'stopping' this for three years now). And I think this is the perfect time. There will be times when I would be reduced to tears again. The memory of you and the prospect of being able to be with you will always leave me wistful.

When I heard the song Real Love while I was riding on a train to take me to a museum, I kept on thinking about how our wedding would be like. How the song could probably be a perfect wedding song for us. But I'm only 20, so it's really idiotic to think about weddings when I still have a career to plan.

This is me thinking to myself. Again. Seems like the only thing left for me to do was think. Unlike other people, we never really had anything tangible exchanged. We only have memories. Too bad I can't put them in a barrel and set them on fire to burn.

The song didn't really have much lyrics except that it kept on insisting that it's real love. It's real love. It's the same thing with us, ironically. Every time I think about you, I think of love. OR at least that's what I'm thinking now. Will there ever be someone who would love me as much as I have loved you?

Was our love real? Even if it was, i know deep inside me we can never be.

Yes, it's real love. Idiot.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Holiday heroics

Great photoshop work replacing Jose Rizal's head with Pacman's

A semester ago I wrote a paper on Rizal and asked street children what to them are heroes. When asked about this, they all replied Rizal, hence, equating a proper name to a certain quality just as other kids would probably say Superman when asked what a hero is, except that Rizal is very real. Now my problem is, is Rizal really real for these kids? Or is he just a fictional comic book character?


Today we celebrate Araw ng Kagitingan (Day of Valor). It signifies the surrender of the U.S. and Filipino troops in Corregidor. I don't understand why we call it as such when the day's all about surrendering. Why the need to commemorate one's fall? Do we lack victorious moments that we scrimp on other historical moments such as falling just so we be able to celebrate something? Or could it be that there's some wisdom attached to it like courage is not only found in continuous struggle but that it is also apparent in being able to accept defeat? Regardless, the working class see this as a blessing for the very long weekend it allows for them.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Letters to X: I Can't Make You Love Me


The show is over.

You have a girlfriend now. And you're probably very happy with her. Asking you to make up your mind for a year (the take it or leave it ultimatum) was beyond selfish. I don't know what to call it. I don't know what drove me to do such a self-centered act.

Although I love you, it is becoming painful for you. Putting you on the hot seat and all. I was reading about these tokkotai pilots and how they have left all these letters to their loved ones and I just realized that them letting go of their loved one and telling them to be happy is the most honorable, if not the purest of all feelings there is - unselfish and undemanding.

You are free now. Be where you should be; beside her. Be happy and enjoy your days with her. I can't believe it took me so long to realize this.

I am sad that I have to do this. I love you but this must stop too. It is ironic that we love each other and yet we can't be together. You were right, we pushed our luck.

I am giving up this fight.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


#1 Do I take something that I would be excited to wake up to everyday or do I go for one that would provide me security with not much feelings?

I know that I am unfairly polarizing two equally good opportunities to make it easier for me BUT I can't help it!

#2 Why is everyone so eager to prove that they got the brains by simply talking about this and that?

#3 Makati is a scary place for people wearing heels!

Monday, April 2, 2012

LSS Recap

I have been singing the same songs the past couple of weeks. It's formulaic, the way I sing songs. One song for a day or two (or more). Loop, loop, loop, until the singer sounds like s/he's just reciting a poem.

So here are the most oft played songs;

1. Naked by Avril Lavigne

Yes because I'm sometimes a sunny emo kid. Most oft repeated line: I'm naked around you...
On a personal note, I always type in Naked Avril whenever I search for her. Sounds very porn-ish, no?

2. Infatuation by Maroon 5
I used to be apathetic of Maroon 5's existence. I just thought that they're cute (especially Levine) when I saw them in Sara Bareilles' Uncharted music video. Anywho. Most oft repeated line: This could be in-fa-choo-a-tion... I want it i want it i want it.

3. This Old Man
A children's song. I found myself humming along to the tune of this while I was surfing the internet. It's actually a very relaxing song with the repetitive notes that never go wrong.